Ever
since I was 8 years old I have had this feeling of having encounters
with the dead. When we lived in our old house I used to have an
imaginary friend that my parents said I always spoke to. Though I cannot
remember her name, I do remember one instance. I had been sitting in my
parents room watching a movie and I
offered my imaginary friend to sit on the bean bag chair that I had
brought into the room. I have always been told that I was a very OCD,
tidy child, and I remember making sure that the bean bag chair was
completely flat and smooth, as everything had to be back then. I
remember turning towards the movie after I had offered for her to sit
down, and hearing a sound, looking at the bean bag chair,
there was an indent as though someone was sitting down. My parents
stated that I often spoke to people who weren’t there and thought it to
just be my imagination.
We
moved into our new house when I was 10, and although I feel safe in the
home, I have always had this feeling of being watched. My friends often
comment on how I speak to people who are not there,they too, feel it is
just my imagination.
My
mother has finally started to believe my stories because two years ago,
my grandmother (her mother) got very sick. The two of us had always
been close and I spent many summers with her, so when she got sick, it
was very hard on me. She had been a strong smoker all of her life, and
she always had this certain smell to
her, different than cigarette smoke (I have many friends who smoke as
well). Anyway, my grandmother ended up not making it, and she passed on
two days before my 17th birthday. I didn’t even get a chance to say I
love you one last time, or to hear her voice say it back.
My
parents gave me a gold angel necklace the day of her wake, which was on
my birthday (my grandfather did not want her actual funeral to be on my
birthday). My mother had said that my grandmother was now my angel,
because she loved me more than anything, and that the necklace would
always symbolize her love for me. I
wore that necklace every day, exactly one year to her death, I was
speeding in my car (trust me, I know it was stupid) to meet my at the
time boyfriend for a date, which I was late for. The road I had driven
hundreds of times before, and I knew all the turns to slow down on. At
one point I had not been paying attention, and I lost control of my car.
I went into a ditch which was surrounded by
trees. I was so far down that no one could see me. When I had lost
control, I had started to scream as my car started to spin around, and I
just remember stopping, and feeling this warmth as though someone was
holding me. When I had finally stopped, I was clinging to the angel
necklace that I had gotten on the day of her wake. I do not remember
ever reaching up to grab the necklace. When
everything became silent, I heard a whisper of I love you, and I swore I
could smell her distinct smell, one that I will never be able to
forget.
I
looked around my car and started to cry. I couldn’t get out of any of
the doors, because my car was smashed in at every point except for where
I was sitting. The glass from both my front and back windshields, was
in a circle around me, as though I was in a bubble. My review mirror,
which had broken off at impact, had
hit my shoulder, and that was the only thing that had hurt me, just a
tiny little bruise. When the police came, they thought I was going to
have to be air lifted out, they said it was a miracle that I was even
walking. They said I should have at least been paralyzed from the waist
down. When they saw the mirror, they had asked where it hit me, fully
believing it had hit me in the head, when I
told them it was just my shoulder, they didn’t believe me. They said it
was as if something had deflected it from hitting my head, and it went
at an angle impossible of going on it’s own. I had climbed out of my
window, and taken a look at my car, it didn’t even resemble a car. I
have told my story to those who have asked, and I will always state with
all my heart that my grandmother saved my
life that day, that she is the reason I am able to walk and breathe on
my own.
I just wanted to say thank you grandma for saving my life, and for always being there for me.
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